"the perks of being a wallflower"

so i was thinking about my thinking and how i prolly shouldn't do it anymore. i think it's becoming unhealthy. but i can't not think so i guess it is what it is.
so i was thinking about my parents. what would it be like if brian divorced my mom. i think that my mom would be terribly sad and then i would have to be there for my mom. i think it would be awful for her. i think that brian would meet someone again. i think so. and i think that i would visit him. it'd be important. i think that my mom would remarry and it would be okay and i wouldn't have to call him dad because the 3rd one is unlucky like that. i would say, "hello bill, welcome home". all because when i think about it...i don't think that shes good at being alone either; which is strange to think since she is so independent..nonetheless...everybody needs somebody, right? i think it'd be better if it happened this way. i thought about it different, and it wouldn't be good. what if they didn't divorce, and brian saw other woman? if my mom found out that would be horrific. she would ruin him, and i would watch it. but. fat chance because i think brian is too loyal of a person. that's why i think it would happen the other way. not that any of this would happen or anything...but just thinking.