We Never Made It to Disneyland.

i am an empty black hole of nothingness. filled with sin and failure. i'm not depressed or anything like it. im just stating the fact of my life. right now. i have given in. and have given up on trying to be good. im confused. He doesn't want us to be good people. but i can't be not good without being bad. or sinning or whatever. argh. this is too complicated.