I went around in my car today. Running errands. The eco club banquet was cancelled. No beach today. We're having it at school instead, during lunch. I can't believe I'm going to be president next year. I doubt I'll make it less terrible than it already is. It's pretty pathetic and I wish it were more. :/ It's a good club, just boring for members. I feel bad. I need to renovate.

Today was mostly boring. Home was boring. My dogs were getting annoying. I made a sandwich. The usual. breadmeatmayonnaisemustardardcheesetomatoavacadopaprikasalt sandwich. I cut it in halves like a child eats it. With a side of tasty cheetos and pomegranite juice. I've gotten into the habit of praying before I eat. I've always attempted to do it, but now it's a habit that I am mindful of. However, I ate dinner with my parents tonight. I didn't pray out loud. While I ate, I thought about how I should say something, but I didn't. I felt so...dirty.

I miss my brother. He was my best friend. Now he's gone. I wish he was here. I thought about him when I was be lazy, watching the tube. I prayed for him. I'm sad that he has to spend his birthday in boot camp. Last year wasn't much better though; on a 50 mile backpacking trip in the Sierras. Every day I checked the mail anxiously hoping to find a letter from him in the stack, but nothing's there. Today I only found an advertisement for Victoria's secret and my license card. I miss him.

If it weren't for God. Idk. This guy invited me to his house. Let's call him Bob. Bob is incredibly handsome. I used to crush on Bob because of this, and partly because I was a stupid freshman. Now I don't care about Bob, but we are friends. He thinks I'm into him. He thinks everyone is into him. That's fine. He's a nice guy. I rejected Bob today. I suprised myself. If it weren't for God, right about now I prolly would have been pulling a tshirt over my head backwards while shoving my left leg through a window with my foot simulataneously searching for a tree to climb down from.