attack of the gold lion.

i am a tool.
i've come to realize that everyone has their priorities.
she asks where do i fall on the list. ask myself. where?
i have no answer so she speaks.
youre on the top of it.
but for some.
youre not.
you might not even have made it.
tragic senseless.

i feel like money is becoming less of a priority.
not that we don't need it or face a lack of.
just that it's not on the top of the list for me right now.
not for today at least.
i just need companionship.
i don't really need it.
i just like it when it's there.
more like just one person.
but not in some promiscuous way.
no one can hear that i take to the boys without a thought of mistrust.
really. there is such a thing as innocence.
people must always judge.
but so easily forget; just as you judge others, you will be judged; by the good Lord Himself.

i cried today. terribly.
one dramatic scene after another.
they are right.
family is politics.
i never enjoyed politics.
it never delighted me.
it never captivated me.
but i play very well. so well.